It’s been too long. It’s been too long and I can feel that something is missing. I’ve been busy and distracted, and the words just haven’t been flowing. I’ve had ideas. I’ve had a few words I could share. But none of it has seemed quite right. The truth is I don’t know what’s next in my life and maybe my blogging patterns are reflecting that. So many options, but all I really need right now is the holy spirits direction.
Have you ever been so content that you’re afraid to move? I’m not talking about comfortable, I’m talking about genuinely happy. Everything is smooth sailing then BOOM! That season comes to an end. Time for things to change but you just aren’t ready. See, until now, God has been teaching me how to be still. And now I’ve gotten so good at being still that I don’t know when I’m supposed to move vs. when I’m supposed to just stop and wait. Faith without works is dead, but “be still and know that I am God”. I’m confused. I’m in a place where quiet time and discernment are crucial, but so is spiritual guidance and wisdom.
I’m not afraid to ask for help, but I’ve always been a person who could hold it all together myself. I pour into other constantly, but my mentee recently asked me who supports me. That is a great question. I’m lucky enough to have spirit-filled friends that I’ve been thanking God a lot for, but lately I just feel like I need that extra layer. I find myself growing weak in certain areas and even though I feel strong, my spirit is crying out. Something is missing.
This blog was created to encourage and empower others through the use of transparency. Well, there you have it folks. I’m just another lost and imperfect child of God, out here trying to make it. I know this post is shorter than normal and a little different from my usual, but I had to write something just to get my momentum back going. I miss this. Somethings been missing.